Ok… today I want to write about the core of all problems in my life. It’s the one thing that has remained and that has created everything that has ever made me sad. That problem is: my lack of social life, or more specifically; the lack of real life friends.
I don’t know if this has ever happened to you… this is the type of things I see in movies, and now it’s happening to me for real. I love traveling and have always dreamt of traveling the world… without my family. I don’t dislike traveling with them, I just bet it’s much more fun doing it with friends. Anyway! The point is… wherever I look, people are traveling. One of my friends travels several times a year… I mean she’s more abroad than she’s home. Another one of my friends is also traveling this year. And how is this like in the movies? Well… you know when someone wants something but for some reason can’t get it, and everybody around them gets it? Well that’s how! It’s like fate is mocking me or something (like that’s new!).
I don’t even understand where people get friends. I’m not as shy as I used to be, but I still can’t manage to find anybody I click with. I don’t get where my friends do it. Seriously… I honestly believe this is God’s plan. I’m not joking. I believe it because it has always been this way. I don’t know why He makes such plans for me, and I don’t ask Him because I highly doubt I’ll ever get an answer, but I believe it because it’s not like I haven’t tried, ok? I have! But there’s only so much I can do! And it’s extremely frustrating because I feel so handicapped without friends! You need those type of thingies to get things done!
Somebody should open a friendship business. Heck I’d even invest in such a thing.
I think the problem is that I simply don’t have an attractive “outer personality”. I have an attractive “inner personality” though, because I can easily make friends online. But once again, it’s not like I have a shirt which auto-updates itself everytime there’s a new post on my blog (and the whole post would be written on the shirt). I’d wear it everyday. Now there’s another business idea.
It’s like owning a car without having money for fuel.