Recently I’ve suffered a few setbacks which have discouraged me. I wish I was among those people who feel even more motivated by such events and try even harder, but I can’t help despairing. I didn’t believe in myself to begin with.

I was thinking about all those people who have someone who believes in them. I have not given anyone anything to believe in. I have no talents. The only emotion I seem to evoke in people is sympathy. I have become “one of those” – people you should feel sorry about.

I understand that there is nothing anybody can do for me, that I need to get back on my feet on my own. But it’s difficult because all I feel like doing right now is giving up.

I’ll probably regret having written this post later today. Some small thing will probably happen that will make me feel better. Or maybe not. Maybe today things will continue just like this. I don’t know. I’m starting to doubt whether I even care.

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