I need to focus on things that I’m proud of. One of my greatest achievements recently, is balance. Alhamdulillah. I’ve observed people who jump way too high, only to fall down crashing. That’s what happens when you let your emotions control you. Those of you that know me, especially in real life, know that I’ve struggled with such things as well. Well, mostly the falling down part. But all of the things I have experienced in life has made me immune to such violent emotional fluctuations, and I now stay on more or less the same level all the time.
Life gets boring because of it, but I stay safe. I’ve also realized that there’s a lack of balanced people out there in the world, so I think in shaa Allah I can make contributions… just by being me.
In the latest AlMaghrib seminar here in Stockholm, Into the Mirror, Sh. Suleiman Hani said that as Muslims, we should be optimistic realists. I’ve always been a pessimistic realist, but in shaa Allah I’m at least aiming for a change now. It’s going to take some major changes in how I talk about things, and some getting used to as I adjust my persona, but it’s a necessary change.
And if I know one thing about myself, it’s the fact that I’m no stranger to changes. I’ve made two major changes in my life in the past 5-6 years, and this is nothing compared to those.
Need to shed off the old skin as well, which includes people.